Meet Stephen...

So, if you haven't met him yet (a.k.a. everyone who reads this minus Cassie and Holli - Skype counts right?), meet Stephen.

This is from our rock climbing trip the other day when he almost died and almost killed his sister.

All are well now.

I didn't almost die. But I didn't do anything hard. Because apparently I'm not the natural I thought I was.

I got scared.

I'll be better next time.

For the roommates who read this...he was gonna meet the roommates the weekend of the race...but he just bailed. Pretty sure he's scared of Katie. :)

Boy

So I just got really excited and was going to post about Valentine's Day...I know - It's March 9th...but I'm a slacker. And NO, not MY Valentine's Day, but my roommates VD. SO, I promise it is coming in the next few days, but the post won't do it justice without the pictures.

For now, I think this is just going to be one long stream of consciousness.

I'm watching a some Juniors right now. Well, actually they are not Juniors. All the Juniors are taking the ACT today, so I am watching about 10 students who are either classified as sophomores or seniors, but who are in junior classes. It's my planning. So I'm not getting anything done. Just thinking, and reading, and typing.

Last night S told me I was "all locked up." TRANSLATION - I'm very guarded. I don't feel like I've always been this way. I feel like there have been times when I've been really open. But, maybe not. Maybe it has just seemed that way because the people I've been open with have been completely safe in every way.

I just don't know. I feel like I was pretty open with N. but was I really? Or does it just seem that way. Even if I was open with him, it was probably because I knew that the relationship was never going to amount to anything. Hmm.

I thought I was going to say I was open with arrogant. but I don't think I was. I think it just seemed that way because he was also pretty guarded.

Hmm...He asked me why I thought I was so guarded, and I really just don't know. I gave some cop out answer about how it probably has to do with my family, or past relationships...but I think those are both cop outs.

Anyways, I'm glad he is aware that I'm guarded. He said "I'm concerned that you are never going to open up and let yourself fall in love with me." I said "I can't make any promises." And in ways I feel like the pressure is off now. @ least he knows where I stand, and that I am terrified of commitment.

I don't want to push him away...but I know I'm pretty closed off. I just don't trust easily. I don't know.

+ it's just really weird to not have to work for it. He calls when he says he will, doesn't break plans (even when he should...like last night when he skipped family dinner) and makes me talk about important stuff. It's just different to just get to be me, and not have to find ways to manipulate the other person.

I'm going to go figure out how to open up and be less guarded!

Hope you all have a terrific Tuesday!

Him

He reminds me of some weird combination of high school (HS), Mountain Man (MM), and Arrogant. Points to the first person who can name all these people's names in real life. I'm guessing no one...oh wait, maybe one person.

He's really nice. I don't think anyone who reads this remembers HS except Rach. HS was just too nice for me. I mean seriously, I couldn't handle it. He was great. But @ 15 I didn't know how to just let someone treat me that well. He found a beautiful girl that obviously knows how to let him treat her well. BUT, S is just as nice. If not nicer. I like it this time around.

MM - Well, hopefully he won't always be my standard of comparison. Maybe one day S will be my standard of comparison, or maybe not...but for now...that's where we stand. Like MM, S loves to be outside. He loves Jesus and enjoys enjoying His creation. He also doesn't mind arguing with me. Something MM never minded doing. They are both real cute with a beard.

Arrogant - S is by no means arrogant. I feel like they both share political views, and the reasons why they hold super conservative views! They both watch the office, and just like I suffered through it for Arrogant, I'm sure I'll suffer through it for S.


So...This is pretty much the story for now. I'll tell you more later. I want to make a running list of things I like about him. And I just need to make a real post later.

Update of sorts...

So I feel like I should update from the vent.

It was a misunderstanding. I did not put a post-it on the referral reminding her that this student was in 4th period (the referral states it, but she wanted something that would stand out). Everything is taken care of. I wrote up my first non-dress code referral since the last post yesterday. And God love my amazing AP because she brought me the referral so I could list previous interventions so that she could follow through. He got one day OSS. Now, I'm thinking I may have preferred 2 days ISS, but as a good educator (Ha!) I shouldn't want my kids to miss more days of school than absolutely necessary.

S0 - all is well in the world.

And the kid who got written up yesterday...well, he called me by my first name...and I was already hot and bothered. SO - I'm betting no one does that for a while.


On a completely unrelated note, I apparently have a boyfriend now. Another post will come soon analyzing what this means...because I don't know! :)