Tears...

As we speak, he is sitting out side of Ms. Funny's (How I will refer to my amazing assistant principal..for anonymity's sake) office.

He looked REAL nervous.

Which he definitely should be.

She's about to bust him.

5 days suspension.

I know this...He doesn't

"Insane (the kid), I'm sure it will be okay, you just need to make better choices."

She's gonna make him cry.

Direct quote from Ms. Funny "If they make you cry, I'm gonna make them cry!"


THAT is why I love my job!

Ex - Cheerleaders...

Goodness. It's been an eventful few days since Friday.

You know how I used to be the 9th grade cheerleading coach? Well I guess technically I still am. Are you considered a coach still if you no longer have a squad.

Corecto my friends...I kicked them all off on Friday night.

The short end of it is that they don't like to cheer, constantly tell me "No we will not cheer at halftime," and show up late to everything (ball games, practice, the end of half time, etc). SO...Friday night...they were actually doing so good. I was going to have this whole post about how they cheered at half time and were AMAZING.

Then 3rd quarter of the boys game...it all fell apart. They refused to cheer several times...ignored my phone calls...rolled their eyes...and, when i finally made it clear "Cheer or pack up," they hid from me. Hid under the bleachers...then they ran from me. RAN FROM ME. In front of a gym full of people.

Then I told them to pack up and return their uniforms.

I was angry. But I worked with amazing people. They've all been so encouraging.

My favorite part...

The girls came to school ready to cheer on Monday (yeah right), and begged me to change my mind. They told me they didn't know why they got kicked off.

When I asked what they thought...

There response...

"Ms. S, you probably think we were disrespectful to you. But we the ones being disrespected. We are SOOOO not appreciated...and we don't appreciate that.'

It took all I could not to laugh at the sweet babies.

Life's gonna be rough for them.

A new note...

Dear S,

Thank you for asking me out for Sunday...thus saving the basketball coach and his fiance a lot of heart ache over a broken engagement.

I CAN'T WAIT.

Love,
O

P.S. Expect it to be awkward. It just will be. :)

The letters I want to write...

There will be no further explanations for the following.

Dear really cute basketball coach at my school,

Please break up with your fiance. We were destined to be together. I know you touch everyones shoulder when you walk past them, and I know you are affectionate with EVERYONE, but what you don't understand is when you touch my shoulder I think I'm the only one. And you probably shouldn't talk. Because your country accent is adorable. So, I'll be waiting in room E*** whenever the engagment is broken.

Sincerly,

Me



Dear S,

You are cuter than the cute basketball coach, and probably love Jesus more. So if you'll just come through, the basketball coach can keep his fiance...she'll probably appreciate that.

Mucho Amor,

Me

Haiti

Admittedly I should be working right now.

But I cannot draw myself away from the images of Haiti on the various news websites. I get about 10 channels at my house. ABC, FOX, NBC, CBS, a few weird local channels, ESPN on occasion, the Home Shopping Network, Csomething and that's about it.

SO, the news is on for about an hour or two everyday. Everything else is local news. Not like most of the rest of the modern world who has FOX News or MS NBC, you know the 24 hour news channels. Anyways, all that to say that I probably didn't know there was an earthquake in Haiti until a couple of days later. And then, I had NO IDEA how bad it was. Had I been at my mom's house, or anywhere else with a news channel, I would have seen, heard and known. But in my world right now I have been oblivious. SO - I have heard how bad it was and decided to spend the last hour or so looking it up on some news websites.

It's DEVASTATING!

I know the rest of the world knows this.

What strikes me as ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS though, is what I've been doing the past week while the people in Haiti have been experiencing Hell.

I've been PANICKING and FREAKING OUT about a boy. A stupid boy that I don't even know, who isn't causing any problems in my life.

That's what I've been doing.

Meanwhile, the people in Haiti are freaking out and panicking over the fact that tens of thousands of their friends and family members have died. They are panicking because there is no food or water and no way to get it. They are disgusted because they have to wear masks because of the stench of decomposing bodies LITERALLY IN PILES all over the street.

And what are my problems about again? Oh wait. That's right. I DON'T HAVE ANY! My life is PERFECT compared to Haiti right now.

I don't understand my selfishness.

Sure, I can be selfless. When things like this make me feel completely awful for the way I think and live. BUT REALLY...There are people who experience loneliness and devastation EVERYWHERE and EVERYDAY. When the rest of the world is grieving I can take my eye off of my selfish, shallow world for 5 seconds. Oh wait...but as soon as news coverage slows...I'll go back to my usual griping and complaining about something that isn't even worth the breathe I'm spending.

What is the answer.

How do we move past selfishness.

How do we move past thinking that our immediate needs ridiculous petty wants are important?

Anyways.

That's just my rant for the day.

I'm frustrated with myself and my selfishness...and that is frustrating me about my kids today.

In class last semester one of the professors said "We hate in others what we hate in ourselves, and we tolerate in others that which we tolerate in ourselves."

I hate my selfishness, and that has looked like me hating my kids today.

And that's not their fault.

If I can't be selfless, why should they?

Job!

Have I mentioned I LOVE LOVE LOVE the people I work with.

LOVE.

Just so everyone knows. :) Thanks sweet people I work with!

New Year's Resolutions...

To join E-Harmony? (If your last name starts with a "G", ignore that)

I didn't make New Year's Resolutions. I am so very very far from perfect, but I really like the way my life is going right now. Sure I could stand to eat better, excercise more, read more regularly, but a resolution isn't really going to make those things happen. So. I think this is a really cool place.

Contentment most of the time.

However, in light of the New Year, and my being unprepared the first few days of school, I had my kids write Resolutions. Here's what I got...

The blue is their resolutions. The purple is my commentary.

• My New Years resolution is to never let anybody get the best of me! No matter what they do or say, I'm going to always keep a smile on my face! I also won't fall for any stupid boy that don't have nothing going for them! :) (That's my cheerleader...not that she's kept these so far...but she's thinking good things).
• To Love ever body like a friend. And be an my grown man.
• To work on my attitude, keep up good grades, good behavior. My attitude will be positive. I will do what I'm suppose to do when I'm asked to. I will be good in class. No backtalking when a teacher accuses me of talking. (Bless her heart, she cussed me out and walked out of my classroom today...New Year's Resolution DOWN THE DRAIN).
• To do all my work in Ms. Singleton's class (YES...My favorite)
• Ha! I can't think of mine, cause I can't remember becuase I'm too sleepy. I think I don't have any. But I have one someone gave my idea. Try to sleep more. I will accomplish this by not caring about anything and sleeping until Febuary, so I can do my filming. Sleep is awesome. (I have no words for this one).
• This one makes me cry. My resolution for this year is to be better than 2009. Ima try to do good in school. Stop the gang life. Stop doin drugs. Because I know the gang life and drugs aint taking me nowhere. Its jourt making me a failure in life. I'm really trying hard to stop all the bad stuff I have done. I finally realized that I want to be successful in life. And I hope 2010 I can be a better person. What do you say to that. I'm proud of him.
• I will do all of my work and turn it in on time & try my hardest. (He's slept EVERYDAY in my class since writing this).
• Note: This kid used to look like a sheepdog. My new years resolution is to let people see my eyes. It will be easy. All I have to do is cut my bangs before they get too long. Sometimes people won't be able to see them, but that shouldn't last too long, cause I'll cut it as soon as I can. I'm sure his mom is thankful. I know I am
• My other favorite. Not disrupting your class, not talking and persuading people to not talk to me. and to Focus on my school work. not throwing things or talking out of turn.
• Live...I don't know how to do that one just yet. WHAT??
• I don't have one. That's my boy!

My personal Favorite

• To do what I never did, to get what I never had. The life is good but you must know it. Try, Try, Try and Never, Never, Never give up.

Let it Snow...Let it Snow...Let it Snow

I have season 2 of Lost in the DVD player....
My bed is nice and warm and cozy...
with clean sheets...
I have stuff to make hott chocolate and apple cider...
I have enought milk to last a couple of days...
I have just a little bit of studying to do so that the day isn't entirely unproductive...
I have a great book to read, just to switch things up...
I have mac & cheese, soup, and pudding (you know comfort food)...
and the basketball game has been called off...

NOW ALL I NEED IS METRO TO COME THROUGH FOR ME!

LET IT SNOW - LET IT SNOW - LET IT SNOW!